Ahh day three…this time it was because there are some things I will never have if I stay where I am. What I’m highly involved in is an all talk situation. Where someone says they want to do things and make you feel things but they can’t actually act on it.
A friend of my Mothers 2-3yrs younger than me has been with her partner 1 year. When he proposed to her he wanted her to know how special she made him feel and how he wanted to do the same for her. Their ridiculously, simply romantic proposal and all I could think was I will never have that because I try my hardest to make him feel special, but he says he doesn’t feel that way, regardless of how much I give and sacrifice. But he will never feel that way with me, and I will never feel that way with him.
We can say we want to be something for each other but without acting on that, in the end we’re living and striving on the hopes that one day the words will run true, one day they’ll become a reality. When making that person feel special isn’t something you need to really think about, it just happens because your instinct is to want to make them happy and make them feel like there is no other choice.
Maybe one day I’ll have that, or at least I hope so.
|—||Neil deGrasse Tyson (via simplybelove)|
Substitute - Frank Turner
I’m fairly certain a chapter of a friendship has closed, and another might be on the way.
So thank you to the 4 others who have messaged me today =)
When I could have been down in the dumps about losing people, I’m maintaining positivity with the people still in my life =)
I feel very lucky to have you guys, so thank you!
*update: make that 5 ♡♥♡♥♡ ♡
LISTENING TO THIS SONG RIGHT NOW
Sometimes I wish I could go back to the days where we’d headbang our way to class ♡
"She came from a background where… nothing was ever good enough. And that was something that weighed heavy on her."
James Deen (via ovarian-barbarian)
This is important ♡
Ocean Beach, San Diego
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